Fun...ramblings...nerves? I don't know...

Hey all,
So I have recently been stumbling and pinning and let me say...I don't have enough time to do all this.  Between work, school, and creeping on the internet, there are not enough hours in the day.  But alas, I will just have to suffer through it. 
I'm nervous...cannot tell a lie. I am currently in Block of classes and starting next school year, I student teach. I'm so scared that I'm going to screw up.  Deep down, I know I won't, but still that fear exists.  The other thing I'm worried about? 
Maid of Honor speech.  I'm totally scared that I'm going to just not make any sense at all.  I'll start off and then all of a sudden it will get extremely awkward and I'll be standing there as red as a tomato (Yes I can get as red as a tomato.  Plenty of former peers have proven that.)  And it's as if I'm socially awkward enough.  I can't count on one hand the number of times that I have pulled off looking cool in front of big crowds.
Most of the time I'm the kid that doesn't say anything and when I do, its sounds either really creepy or really mean or just plain wrong.  I can't help it...well I could and I have come to grips with my awkwardness. It's just society's ideas of what we're supposed to do make me cringe and hide my face. 
I really just need to follow this quote by Cynthia Heimel.  "When in doubt, make a fool of yourself.  There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth.  So what the hell...leap."
That is my new mantra.  I'm going to take the leap and see what happens. 
What about you?
   CG

Time...to Rant

School has started and I have very little time to do anything, even updating.  I'm learning to be okay with that. 
  I so need to rant about something...I love my job, I really do, I love what I do and the members, however I'm not a fan of some of the people I work with.  They are rude, immature, stupid, assholes, jerks, inconsiderate and act like the world belongs to them and the rest of us are their plebeians.  I am NOT your servant, I don't care how high you got, or how drunk you were, or how many chicks you banged, what I care about is you doing your job so I don't have to.
   I also enjoy how they get away with everything.  Heaven forbid they get in trouble.  Finding large pieces of broken glass in the bar where we clean glasses is awesome.  I so wanted stitches.  Throwing crap at me because I told you I was bar tending and you needed drinks, real mature.  Gosh I don't know why girls are not just throwing themselves at your feet. 
  You are not God's gift to the world you are mortal, a human being just like the rest of us and I don't appreciate having to deal with all your bull shit excuses and you stupid stories.  Take responsibility for what you do.  It's not that hard of a concept.  GROW UP! 
  That is all. 

Beauty

Tonight my twin and I were talking about beauty.  What is beauty?  In our society it's twig thin.  Doesn't matter what color of hair you have or eye color or skin color...as long as your thin your pretty.  Add a little curve and society deems you not so pretty. 

I do NOT agree and neither does my twin.  We talked about how great woman like Audrey Hepburn, Marilyn Monroe, Mae West, Betty Page, and all the pin-up girls with their curves and non curves were gorgeous and how society needs to change their perception of beauty. 

 Marilyn Monroe said  that "All little girls should be told they are pretty, even if they aren't."  I would like to paraphrase, "Everyone should be told they are pretty no matter what." 


I propose a movement to show that everyone is beautiful, in their own unique way.  I say we shout it from the mountain tops, from the buildings, "We are beautiful!  I am Beautiful!"

Remember

            Beauty is skinny, curvy, all body types

            Beauty is dark skin, light skin, your skin, my skin

            Beauty is big chest, little chest, no chest.

            Beauty is brunettes, blondes, redheads, all colors.

            Beauty is personality, laughter, joy, happiness,

            Beauty is everyone.

 

           

Holidays

  November...a beautiful time of year. I do love November for the most part.  The one thing I hate?  It's NOVEMBER so that means THANKSGIVING, not DECEMBER, so stop with the Christmas stuff.  Let's get through one holiday at a time people.  It's not all that hard, I promise.
  It's the one thing that annoys me every year.  I promise there is enough time to get Christmas done before Dec. 25.  We have Black Friday for a reason.  I do love Christmas don't get me wrong, but Thanksgiving is celebrated for a reason.  Be thankful we're here and alive and have people that care for us.  HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!
  So let's get through one Holiday at a time, it's not that hard of a concept to understand.

Scary, Creepy, Freaky, & Supernatural

It's my favorite time of the year, October.  How I adore this month.  You get cooler weather, at least where I live, pretty colors, and Halloween.  My absolute favorite holiday.  Why?  Because I can dress like a slut without actually being a slut.  Just kidding.

Halloween is my favorite holiday.  I love the aspect of being able to dress up as anyone or anything I want.  Like last year I was a tarnished Fairy Tale Princess.  Most people assumed that I go knocked up and that was why I was tarnished.  I didn't, I just didn't like my Prince and ran off.  It was fun.  This year I am going as a Masquerade girl.  I'm making my own mask and my grandma and friends are helping me with it.  I can't wait.


I also like the back story of Halloween.  All the superstitions behind everything, for instance why do we have Jack-O-Lanterns and why do we dress up and what's with the candy giving.  They all have really neat stories behind them.

The origins begin with the ancient Celtic festival known as Samhain.  The festival of Samhain is a celebration of the end of the harvest season in Gaelic culture. Samhain was a time used by the ancient pagans to take stock of supplies and prepare for winter. They believed that on October 31, the boundaries between the worlds of the living and the dead overlapped and the deceased would come back to life and cause havoc such as sickness or damaged crops.The festival would frequently involve bonfires. It is believed that the fires attracted insects to the area which attracted bats to the area. These are additional attributes of the history of Halloween. (Found at the website below.)

http://www.halloweenhistory.org/.  Check out that website for more info on how Halloween evolved.  IF you continue on it tells you the story of the Jack-O-Lantern.  If you want to learn more about Halloween history just type it in.

You can't forget the other great part about Halloween.  The scary movies.  I hate them because I can never sleep afterwards and love them because I like being scared and the interesting story lines.  I find it funny that the movies that could actually happen, Like Halloween, or Fatal Attraction, or even House of Wax don't freak me out nearly as much as the ones that really couldn't, like Poltergeist, or Pet  Semetary.   My all time favorite scary movie is Scream with Hitchcock's Vertigo as a close second.  I absolutely love Hitchcock's movies.  They are the suspenseful scary as opposed to the blood and guts scary.   Personally the suspense scary are more frightening than the blood and guts.  Check out Hitchcock's movies if you haven't.  Psycho, The Birds, Vertigo, and Rear Window are really good.

It's been real, off to read some scary stories before bed.  Why do I do this to myself?  What are some of your favorite scary movies or stories? 

Just Wondering...

Hey all, my first blog...

Sounds exciting, like an action movie.  I love action movies, you get hot guys, awesomely epic explosions and usually a little bit of romance.  I will admit that I am a romantic at heart.  Not many people believe me when I say that, mostly because I'm the one that sarcastically replies when someone says something mushy or start to laugh when a guy winks at me or nods.  I can't help it, they look so silly. 

 If you can't tell, I tend to drift off oddly.  I actually do that when speaking too, probably part of the reason I had trouble in speech class.  Of course, have trouble speaking in front of people could be a part of that as well...food for thought...

Well darlings, do you mind if I refer to you as darlings?  I will anyway or other endearments, not baby though.  I hate that endearment.  It's so overused. 

Well Duckies,

it's been sweet.  Talk soon.